June 4, 2015: Jeremy’s Passing

D-J-02a - Version 2Dear Friends and Loved Ones,

It is with the deepest sadness that I share that Jeremy passed on two days ago, the night of June 1st.

As you know, Jeremy had been hospitalized last March with uncontrolled bone pain. He was hospitalized for over two weeks with a great team of doctors working hard to get his pain under control. When we returned home, he had another terrible pain crisis, and we made the decision to have a pain pump installed so that he could receive intravenous pain medication, along with at-home nursing care to better manage the pain. The pain pump helped relieve his pain, but he continued to suffer from bad pain and nausea.

Over the last several weeks, his condition gradually deteriorated. He lost over 40 lbs, ate increasingly smaller portions of food, became very weak, and struggled to get around the house. Then about two weeks ago, I noticed a significant decline in his health – he virtually stopped eating (except for ice cream, which he always loved), slept most of the day, and did not have the energy to speak with his friends, even on the phone. A week ago last Monday (May 25), he worsened even more significantly. At that point, it became clear to me – and the nursing staff – that he was beginning the active dying process.

Chris Trani, who had been the Training Coordinator for The Seven Levels of Healing program for many years – and over the course of their work, became a dear friend of Jeremy’s, and later also a dear friend of mine, flew out from Portland, OR, early on Tuesday, May 26 to come help us. A day later, Jeremy’s wonderful sister, Amara, flew in from Meadville, PA. Together, we spent the next few days caring for Jeremy, walking him through the dying process, and holding sacred vigil for his transition. It was an extraordinary – and also very difficult – week. There were some very sweet moments and also some really hard ones.

My focus as his partner and caregiver was to do everything I could to create a safe, gentle, peaceful, and sacred container for his passing. It was the sweetest gift I’ve ever given or received. Chris and Amara were instrumental in helping me to create this space for Jeremy.

On his last day, it became clear that Jeremy was very close to passing. He had become unresponsive and his breathing changed and quickened. Finally, at 10:25 pm, he passed very peacefully with me, Amara, and Chris together with him. There was a beautiful energy in the room, and it felt to me like he had transitioned from one group of loving hands to another.

I know that one of Jeremy’s great sadnesses over the last couple of months has been his inability to write another blog post. He really wanted to be in touch, but just couldn’t given his worsening condition. I am sorry that he did not have this opportunity – not only to update you, but to hear back from you, which has meant so much to him over these last months.

As his sweetheart, I feel I can say on his behalf: Jeremy loved (and loves) you all so much, and was (and is) so grateful for your being in his life. Thank you from both of us for all of your great love, encouragement, and kindness through these years of profound pain and suffering.

I fully trust that Jeremy is now surrounded by love, and residing in a peaceful place free from the suffering he endured in this life. At the same time, I am grieving deeply and in a very inward place right now as I try to wrap my heart around not having Jeremy physically with me. I only know to take my life moment-by-moment, and allow myself to feel whatever arises.

I send my love and prayers to you all as you move through your own waves, pools, and rivers of emotion.

Please know that we will be organizing a memorial service later in June. I will be sending out an email with details within a few days. It would be wonderful to have you there to celebrate Jeremy’s life, if you can make it.

With much tender love,

Kristina

Jeremy and Kristina in Maui 1:2014

37 thoughts on “June 4, 2015: Jeremy’s Passing

  1. Nancy Rumbel

    Blessings, love and hugs to you Kristina. Jeremy’s spirit will always remain a wonderful inspiration and bring a smile. I am so sorry that you both had to endure so much pain and suffering. May you find some rest and peace although I know your heart is grieving so.
    Love,
    Nancy

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    1. Linda Simons

      Dear Kristina,

      When Jeremy introduced me to you at Omega I knew he had found a very special sweetheart in you. You held him with a quality of tenderness and care that was touching to witness. Together you radiated love. Beautiful.

      I imagine you are very tired and may feel a bit raw emotionally. Such a profound loss, as you know, can take us to a place of awe and deep reflection coupled with grief. It’s a strange paradox that challenges us to balence the vastness of life’s multidimensional nature and the simple, great void we feel when someone we love is no longer with us physically. Ouch! And, wow!

      You are in my prayers, Kristina. I am sending you strength and a hug. With blessings and love, Linda

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  2. Parvati

    Thank you for filling in the blanks of the last few months, and for being there with such an open loving heart.

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  3. Dina

    Dear Kristina,
    I am so sorry for your loss…and for the planet’s loss of a wonderful and amazing soul.
    Every day since I learned of Jeremy’s condition I have prayed for him and you. I continue to pray for your peace and healing. We can take some solace in the fact that Jeremy is now at peace.
    Thank you for sharing this sad news in such a beautiful manner.
    Namaste
    Dina Crawford

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  4. David Langer

    Kristina — Thank you so much for writing and posting this. I only became aware of Jeremy about six months ago but, through his work and posts, came to know who he was and appreciate him profoundly. I am dealing with bone marrow cancer, COPD and pulmonary hypertension, so also preparing myself for the transition. So …extra resonant with Jeremy’s journey of the last six months. Please accept my warmest big hug and appreciation for this moment in your process. With love, David Langer

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  5. Uma Simon

    Thank you for your beautiful words, Kristina. We all know how lucky Kabir was to have you in his life. May you find peace and comfort in your remembrance of your time with him. We hold you both in our hearts. Love, Uma

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  6. Adam Engle

    Dear Kristina,

    My heart goes out to you, to Jeremy’s family and other friends. I offer a deep bow of gratitude and my deepest condolences to you. This is absolutely beautifully written and heartfelt. You have conveyed the love and pain that you both went through, and the majesty of Jeremy’s transition with the three of you guiding the process.

    As you know I have been in Brazil during these past two+ weeks and have been offering prayers for both of you many times each day. I share your conviction that Jeremy has transitioned from one set of loving hands to others. I will miss him dearly on this plane, but my sadness is also wrapped in a feeling of relief that that you are now both freed from living with his extraordinary pain and suffering. As I said in my last visit with you both, throughout this journey, and especially during the past year, I have been amazed and awestruck with Jeremy’s ability to maintain his clear headed command of his process and ability to connect with compassion, all while he was enduring severe pain; and with your unwavering love and support. You are both truly and extraordinary souls.

    I close this comment prostrating to you for your love, devotion and heartfelt endurance through this journey. You have given Jeremy the greatest gift imaginable and one that he longed for his entire life: A deeply aware and loving partner to share his life, his journey and his passing. There is no greater gift in the universe and we all thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

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  7. Sandy Sela-Smith

    Jeremy,

    We will all miss you; we will feel an emptiness where you resided in our hearts, and the world will miss your vibrational presence, on this 3-diimensional plane…but know that who you were, are, and will be continues to resonate in this world and in the Universe. When the grief diminishes for us, we will notice the emptiness of not having you here with us in body will fill with your resonance that continues to vibrate in the Universe.

    Your planting of seeds to change the paradigm of the medical world has not, yet, bloomed, but the seeds have taken root, and shifts are in process of happening. None of us knows how long it will take for these seeds to grow to full maturity…but they will, and there will be a time humanity, and the medical world understands the multi-dimensionality of who were are and will get it that to be healed, body, mind, heart, and spirit need to be taken into account.

    What you accomplished in your 58 years, 11 months, and 1 week, on this planet in this lifetime is far more than most have accomplished–and we all know that you had dreams and visions of more. Know that we are grateful for your contribution; even those who did not know you have benefited from what you have given. But those of us who have known you, understand that you found your way to “Healing Through the Eyes of Love.” Thank you.

    Be well, my dear friend.
    Sandy

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  8. Dianne Rule

    Dearest Kristina,

    Thank you for sharing with all of us what Jeremy and you were experiencing these last weeks. Your words gave me assurance that the Peace and Love you both sought was, and continues to be experienced. I truly share the deep sense of loss and sadness, especially that you both suffered so much pain. Cancer is a scourge we all fear. I trust there is some solace in knowing that Jeremy’s years as an Oncologist and teacher brought healing and relief to many, many others.

    I pray that you and Jeremy’s family will be comforted knowing that he is pain free and surrounded by Eternal Love.

    My Deepest Condolences and Love to You, Kristina.

    Dianne Rule

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  9. Priscilla Mahama Glennon

    Dear Kristina, thank you for sharing your beautiful but painful story of his passing. I have known Kabir since he was a teenager. We spent many wonderful moments together. He was a truly loving , kind and gentle soul. We were all very lucky to have shared in his life. My heart goes out to you and I send you the deepest love from my heart. Namaste, Maha Ma

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  10. Paul Bass

    Jeremy gave more of himself to his patients, and to life itself than any health care professional I have ever met. May he rest in God’s Holy Presence, and may he know how much he was respected and loved by all who were so blessed to spend time with him. We will all truly miss him.

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  11. peter churchill

    dear kristina,
    you are a beautiful courageous woman, and jeremy was very blessed to have you in his life these past years (and he knew it and told me this many times!).

    thank you for your love and care for our friend when we could not be there by his side

    i will always love and honor jeremy

    i send my love and my heart to you, and to jeremy on the next step of his journey

    peter

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  12. Diana Tripp

    Dearest Kristina,

    I wasn’t aware that Kabir was suffering so these last few weeks but I could feel that he wasn’t doing well. I know the love between you two has made this most difficult passage as bearable as possible. I am so, so sorry for your loss. It is a loss for all of us, of course. What an amazing man – and was an honor it has been to know him in this physical reality. He’s been an inspiration to us all – and we will all have such fond and profound memories. I hold you both in my heart.

    Please do reach out if there is anything that any of us can do to support you at this tender time.

    Love,
    Diana

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  13. Maria

    We are spiritual beings living the adventure of a human path. May Dr. Jeremy make his way back to the spiritual world, blessed with lots of light and wisdom. Keep yourself well, Kristina. With all my love, Maria

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  14. Sarah McLeod

    Dear Kristina,
    Thank you so much for sharing this news with us. Through the journey of the past few months, Branden and I have carried you both in our hearts. We continue to hold you in our thoughts and send our love. It was an honor to share a short time with Jeremy and feel his beautiful heart full of grace and his spirit shining.
    Much love to you both – Jeremy with us now in spirit – radiant.
    blessings.

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  15. Diane Nunn

    Dearest Kristina

    Thank you for being in Jeremy’s soul and heart. The two of you have shared and will always share the closeness that has characterized your relationship. He loves you so much and has always been so grateful to have such a soul mate who has understood and supported his life mission.

    I was Jeremy’s sixth grade teacher and could see then his desire and quest to somehow make life better for others. He searched and questioned, always wanting to delve deeper into the reasons for beliefs historic and scientific and I am sure you can understand that for him, being in school was never just a required state of being.

    Having lost my own dearest mate to cancer so early – – – he was only 45 – – – and having experienced his terrible suffering and feeling so helpless I know the depth of your sorrow, frustration, and yes, even the anger and can tell you that it will be the joy experienced with him that will prevail.

    Please feel the embrace contained within this message. My thoughts of support and comfort are with you
    Bless you, Kristina.

    Lovingly sent,
    Diane Abbey Nunn
    Monteagle, TN

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  16. Carla

    Dearest Kristina – the Supreme Shakti to Jeremys Shiva,
    You are a light to all of us, teaching us how to stay loving and present when your heart is breaking a little every day. Your strength from such deep love is a beautiful teaching. Thank you for your guidance and words, it helps all of us find some closure.

    No one will ever match the power, intelligence, courage, wide open heart, and intensity of Jeremy. I am eternally grateful to have been loved by him as a friend and sister in spirit. I am honored to have been witness to your beginning romance and meeting again in this lifetime. Smiling eyes and drunken grins, arms and legs entwined like flowering vines…that is what I will remember, his happiness.

    Fly free my friend.
    Carla

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  17. Tirzah Firestone

    Kristina,
    Your words are like clear water, thank you for writing.
    If there is anything whatsoever that I can do, please call me at
    303 819 1339.
    Thank you for being such an angel of mercy and love for our brother.
    I too sense tremendous relief on his side, and feel him flashing that
    big mischievous grin of his….

    With love to you dear sister,
    Tirzah

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  18. Pat Blair Pierce

    Dear Kristina (& Jeremy) –
    Thank you so much for the update. I can only imagine the sorrow you are feeling. However, you can find comfort in all you did for & with him to support & love him on his earthly journey.
    Thank you for being the voice of Jeremy & you. Sending love & blessings to you & the family. Pat

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  19. Kathryn

    Dear Kristina,

    I am so saddened by Jeremy’s passing. He touched my soul in a way that I have never known in my life. He has helped me to know my God in a more special way because of his love, compassion, and caring. It is hard for me to imagine the grief that you must be feeling at this time, and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers in this very difficult time. I thank God daily for the gift of Jeremy in my life.

    Many blessings and love,

    Kathryn

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  20. Varanasi

    So much love. Feelings of hope.
    To have known this spiritual journey is beyond words at the moment.
    The depth of silence, AND THE BREATH.
    Peace be with you, dearest travelers.
    I feel the equanimity of joy.

    Yes, Much Love
    Varanasi

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  21. Mitch Sisskind

    Kristina, this is a beautiful message about Jeremy’s last days. Thank you so much.

    It was a great privilege and an unforgettable experience to work with Jeremy on his book, The Journey Through Cancer. He was such a remarkable person, truly open-minded, both a scientist and a spiritual seeker. I learned so much from him. He had a unique and mysterious destiny in life, and perhaps in his death also. I don’t pretend to understand it.

    Jeremy helped so many people,. I saw this for myself at his clinic in Vero Beach. He was absolutely tireless about his work.

    After being out of touch for several years, we had just begun talking about a new book in which Jeremy hoped to address some of the very basic questions he had been engaged with all his life. But then he learned he had cancer. It seemed incredible. We only spoke a few times after that. But he was certainly in my thoughts, as he always will be.

    Onward,
    Mitch

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  22. lisa drake

    Kristina, we have not met and i can only say i feel your love for jeremy and am so happy he had you in his life. your message is profound and reminds me of jeremy and his knowing smile, that everything put on our plate and in our head is to be paused over, analyzed, and experienced with extreme gusto. you certainly had that in spades with him. i am so happy he wrote these blogs, though difficult to read, becasue i missed most of this journey, having known jeremy 10 years ago. blessings to you Kristina. sending love and light.

    lisa

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  23. Nazak

    Dearest Kristina,

    Holding you in my thoughts and prayers and sending you hugs of light during these challenging times.
    Thank you angel for creating a safe, gentle, sacred and peaceful space to support his transition to go back home. Farewell Jeremy until we meet again.

    With much love,
    Nazak

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  24. William

    Kristina,
    Sending you love, warmth and compassion. Jeremy is such a beautiful being to me and to so many of us. The gift and blessing of his life has impacted me in the most profound and incredible way. The time we have spent together and the journeys we have traveled through will stay close to me as I continue down this road.
    You are close to my heart at this time and I will continue to pray for you as you navigate this terrain. I send you strength, resolve, understanding and light. I have a tremendous amount of respect and love for you. How you have been by Jeremy through all of this is beyond words. Thank you. Thank you for who you are and what you are, an angel, truly.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you as you mourn. Bless you

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  25. Yael Sunshine

    Kristina,
    I had the extraordinary privilege of meeting Jeremy at Omega in 2004 and he has held a sacred space in my heart ever since. I felt I had met a soul brother and am so grateful to have known him. I’m unbelievably saddened at his passing and to hear how much he suffered. The profound bond between you flies off the pages of his writing and is tangible in photos of you together, what an extraordinary gift for you both. I’m so sorry that you two didn’t have more years together on this plane yet feel that you share a love that exists in the great Undying.
    Much love and blessings for solace,
    Yael

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  26. Jennifer Lentz

    Oh Kristina–what a wonderful and beautiful person you are. I not only feel the loss of Jeremy, but great sadness for you and the empty hole in your heart. What you have been through is amazing in so many ways and I know Jeremy loves you all the more for so lovingly guiding his last days with you. Jeremy was such an alive person it is hard for me to imagine him gone. With much love for you both– Jennifer Lentz

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  27. Darrin Harris Frisby

    Dear Kristina… my heart goes out to you and I appreciate deeply hearing the details of Jeremy’s passing.

    Please do keep me posted via my email provided here the details of the memorial.

    Love Darrin

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  28. Eric

    This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your process. I am moved beyond words. Much love to you, Jeremy, and all who have been a part of this. Blessings.

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  29. nando

    we love Jeremy so much, we shared very good quality times together, even he came down to brasil to visit, he was like a child rejoicing in nature and waterfall, very joyful and loving. we wish for him a very safe and tranquile time to the starts, may the great spirit embrace him in the heavens…may his family and people that love him be calm and sure to send him all the force of love for his travel, we are praying for him with a big smile in our heart, con mucho amor.

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  30. Ellin Todd

    to Kristina,
    My deepest condolence. To be with Jeremy was to know the very deepest suffering and longing … And the greatest love of the most true life. You are his final wish. Thank you for exceptionally fulfilling your partnership…..and for your expansive heart….for enfolding us all in this.

    Jeremy…..too soon…I miss your presence here on Earth. There is a space open to God. And I feel relief, for I never knew you to be free from deep suffering and pain in this life. And now, I imagine you free within the mystery.

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  31. Melissa

    Bless you sweet woman ~ We weep with you. We bow to you. We rise again. I kiss your heart, woman to woman, sister to sister. Your grace is a gift to this whole world. May you feel wrapped in his embrace as he was/is so brilliantly wrapped in yours. I am near … in love, in respect, in deep understanding of the landscape of such loss. Reach out anytime or not at all. Know that I am sending you all love and faith in your return and his flight. Love to you dear Kristina. Melissa

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  32. Jane

    Kristina – it is such an amazing honor to be with a loved one as and when they pass from this earthly plane. At a minimum it is humbling. Thank you for sharing. Holding you in light.

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  33. Shelley Adams

    Hi Kristina,
    My mother was a patient of your beloved Jeremy and I am so sorry to learn about his passing. He gave my mother hope and time to be with us as long as she was able to and because of that, Dr. Geffen has always held a special place in my family’s heart. Please know that he will forever be remembered in my family as well as all the families whose loved one he took care of. There was no one like him…. Our deepest sympathies and prayers to you!

    Shelley Adams

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